Rambling

Where It All Starts

Hi there

I hope that “Hi there” is still considered an appropriate way of greeting people. If it’s not, well then it’s perfect for me. My name is Wentzel Lombard. I am a 22-year-old freelance actor/writer from Pretoria. Well, originally I’m from Harrismith in the Free State, but I came to Pretoria to follow my dreams like every other starry-eyed young person that wants to be remembered for more than just being exceptionally good at breathing and consuming. When I say that I’m a freelance actor that means that I currently do children’s theatre for little kids. I know that it’s not exactly KKNK or Grahamstown, but at least it’s a way for me to earn money by actually doing what I studied and not some other random job. Not that I’m opposed to doing random jobs. I’m at a point in my life where I’ll do anything to just earn some money and avoid sitting in my tiny flat listening to the radio. The writing part comes in with the fact that I write a lot of stuff, like this thing that you are reading now. Last year I published my first short story and I’m hoping that the next one will appear in a magazine at some point before the end of this year. I write my stories in Afrikaans, but I’m writing this blog in English, because many of my friends don’t understand Afrikaans and I’m just sweet like that. Also, when I type in English I get to use auto correct and that’s very important because many of my former teachers and lecturers are reading this and quietly judging me. It’s just too much pressure for me.

You see, the reason why I’m starting with this blog is because I’m frustrated. I’m frustrated in many ways (yes, that way too) and I want to use this as a platform for me to express my frustration from. Because I’m not exactly mainstream. When it comes to the entertainment industry it’s tough, because I’m not one of those pin-up boys with the flat abs, perfect smile, blonde hair, and blue eyes. I’m most likely not going to play the romantic leading man or the action hero, because that’s just not my category. As much as Glee would like you to believe that there’s a place for everyone in this industry, it’s not that true. Agents and casting directors and more concerned with looks than talent. There, I said it. I suppose that I’m not hideously ugly, but I’m not the kind of boy that’s going to make anyone’s knees weak. I need to use my brain and talent to get by in life, because I don’t have a pretty face to fall back on. When it comes to writing, I’m in the same position. The short stories that I write are generally not considered appropriate for magazine readers. The thing is that I don’t have an interest in writing the money-making love stories that magazines like to publish. I like writing about the controversial and often darker side of life, and people don’t like to be confronted with that. I can understand that. Life is already so fucking awful sometimes. We don’t need more sadness and heartache, but what am I supposed to do with my stories? Sorry, I’ll try to not swear too much in my writing, but I studied drama and it kind of corrupted me.

I’m a very private person, but when it comes to writing, I find it very hard to keep everything in my life private. So, I’m just going to put it all out there for you to deal with. I am gay. Yes, it’s true. No, I am not a pedophile or a Satanist. I’m just a young man that is attracted to other men. I can’t explain it. It just is that way. It’s not something that I feel incredibly comfortable talking about, because it’s very personal and people can be really mean about it. I don’t walk around with a rainbow flag or randomly kiss guys in public, but it’s a part of me and obviously it’s also going to be a part of my writing sometimes. If it makes you uncomfortable then I understand completely, but please keep that to yourself and leave me alone. I’m also bipolar, but that’s all that I’m going to say about that for now.

In conclusion, I am a peace loving, lonely soul that wants to find a way to communicate with the world. I can’t promise you that what I write is always going to be good, funny, or interesting. I can just tell you that it will be from my heart. And as much of an asshole as I can be, I do truly believe that I have a good heart. So, please keep coming back and reading my stuff. If you like it, please share it with your friends and family, so that they can join in. If you are one of my friends or family members then you’d better keep reading or else I will ignore you into a slow, painful death.

Much love

WentzelImage

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